Life without a direction

It would seem as though there's nothing I do which has direction. I've never been able to make decisions, declarations or commit to any single idea. I considered my idol blog a failure, but, maybe I'm the failure. The realization came from this blog, this blog which isn't really the final version of Yoroshicookie. I'm using blogger to write and entertain the idea of the blog title, but in about a month's time Yoroshicookie will be a fully hosted, uniquely developed blog hosted with Wordpress.

In recognizing that this is but a venture to test the waters, test the brand "yoroshicookie" and test my resolve as a writer; I also recognize that I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, nor do I really feel passionately about any one subject to commit to it fully. The problem about not coming to a subject fully is that you'll never acquire a reader base else wise. I'm not a celebrity  people don't care about my opinion 99% of the time with the only 1% coming by way of people which share similar interests. By not having a focus, I can't focus on that small percentage of people who read my writing.

Idoldome may not be as successful as WanderingWota was (not that I ever advertised or actively posted on ID), but, like WW.. ID focuses on a specific subject and because of that, it does bring me readers. I know at the very least I get 200-300 readers a post. So what is Yoroshicookie? Where would this name and brand go? More than likely nowhere. And honestly, I want to have a personal blog where I can write stuff that only I'd read... but, Yoroshicookie --is at least in my mind-- a serious blog meant to be of service to like  minded people who share my interests. 

Also, my dream will forever be running a successful multi-editor blog. I don't know anyone who shares my interests, yet alone someone who know's the basics of writing. /rant. 

Training Thought

Randomly I'm opening up my blog and posting simply for the sake of training myself to improve on free writing. My playstation's roaring in the background, sounds like a nuclear reactor cooling down.. indeed, very annoying.

Today I was approached by an annoying contact of mine, a contact who I've blocked before due to his excessive contacting me, who asked me to take care of his brother while he's gone in Korea. I don't know this guy in real life, he's a high school teacher and apparently also an alcoholic (something he explained to me in his letter), who's come across hard times. He's quitting his job as a teacher and taking a small amount of money to try and make it big in Korea. What a clown. 

He claims there's opportunity for him there, which I don't really understand since he has a job already and in moving to Korea he'd more than likely find himself doing the same trade for less pay. He hates Koreans too and often makes racist remarks about them and loves to comment on how they're lesser than Japanese. Just seems like a very odd escalation of events. One day he's in the hospital fighting for his life (wasn't even curious enough to ask why) and next he's leaving his home of 24 years in Colorado for life in Korea. 

I don't know his brother, I just added him on facebook about 2 days ago and he's asking me to be his keeper since he wont be around anymore. What an asinine request. I live in New York City and have no relationship with this kid (who's 17), yet he's asking me to become his brother's big brother and protect him, asking me to keep him out of trouble while he's in Korea indefinitely. Such a bizarre and foolish request... My power is just as limited as his would be living in Korea... and what, do Korean's not have internet? Why can't he maintain a relationship with his brother himself? He said goodbye to me and everyone else like he was traveling to North Korea or another planet. 

I haven't responded to him yet, I don't think I will either because it's literally the stupidest shit I've read all year. I seem to attract freaks on the internet; they're always such extremely odd people who're super clingy and hyper-unrealistic in their concepts of internet friendship. I'm done with the strange girl (or guy) who's fallen in love with me, the odd kid who's ranting about how he's ready to take his life... and now, the strange alcoholic who's asking me to rear his brother during his time as an expat. Am I the only normal one online? 

Yoroshicookie: my new venture as a writer

Ah, and here I am once again with a new blog, start and promise to myself. Seems this is becoming routine. Well, thinking about it, I haven't really failed to commit to blogging at all. Rather, I've had a troubles maintaining domains.

I promised myself in 2011 that I'd continuously blog and produce multiple posts a week. That plan felt short when I made the mistake of focusing my blogging exploits on a new project, PROJECT IDOLDOME. A multi-editor blob project which came about after meeting a comrade at AKB's 2012 concert in march.

It took awhile to kick things off on that site, during that time and due to stresses at work, I hadn't any energy for writing. Then when IDOLDOME kicked off, my partner in crime subsequently abandoned the project leaving me high and dry... and plenty broke. As for IDOLDOME itself, the site didn't see much activity; whereas I was incredibly active for over a year on WanderingWota (now defunct), The Dome seemed to drain my creativity. I've never been one to write solely about any one topic, so by focusing on that site without any side project where I could freely speak my mind, writing became a tedious chore.

My current relationship with The Dome is one to two posts every one to two months. Pretty pathetic for a site which took so much money to fund and is still a burden on my bank account. Fortunately Idoldome sees a bit more activity with help from other writers like Banana, who's not too active herself.

Speaking of Banana-chan, the name "Yoroshicookie" was inspired by her and a skype chat we had where she was joking around on cam pretending to be an idol. She's a really funny girl who has me dying every minute... it's hard for me to create names, it's usually a painstaking effort which takes me months. It's nice for a change that one of my blog names was born in laughter rather than headache. I owe that to Banana.

As for Yoroshicookie, this blog should remain active for years to come. I'm not filtering myself here to any one subject and I'm going to try to grind out a few posts a week. I wouldn't be all that surprised if I ended up posting more about idols on this blog than I ever did on Idoldome. Well, Yoroshicookie Onegaishimasu.